If i can't be beautiful, i want to be invisible

Hey you,
I've been busy with homework, tuition and bla bla bla.
And yes, i want to be beautiful. Almost all my friends are beautiful and pretty. I'm the odd one. shit. I am fat, yeah F-A-T. Oh god, sometimes i hate my body, sometimes I'm okay with. Sorry for the babbling huhu~

But, I'm glad if someone could appreciate me just the way i am.

Last night, i went for a wedding reception in Politeknik. And i saw one of my friend who used to go tuition with me. She is so beautiful! I am so envy of her, haha. I always tried to go on diet, but it doesn't work out. I always felt like i need to chew something. And when in Add math class, all i can only think is food..hurrmm. Besides, i do not like to exercise. huhu

Maybe i will try again and again to make me beautiful, hah~

but, what really matter is your heart right?