Honestly, why some people keep telling lies but they never feel bad about it. They just keep the drama going on. Like seriously? For some reasons, I began to hate some kind of people. Actually I want to talk about hate but I guess i don't want to be so harsh. Some things are meant to be left behind.
Forget the past they say. Move on they say. Dont be grudgy they say. But guess what, every day i never stop thinking what i did wrong? I now I didn't co-op well with others. I can't perfectly socialize with people surrounding me. They might think I am weird. maybe they hate a quite person. They might think I'm dumb too.
I am the combination of something that people didnt like much. Ugly, fat, quite and not happy-go-lucky person. I might be an introvert person haha. Some of my days were awesome, some were not quite so.
I can't blame anyone. It feels like I'm always in this deep moment. my insecurities were high. I can't even help myself. I tried to motivate myself, but it didn't really worked. I kept blaming myself on every mistakes of my life. My life feels empty. Maybe it is because of my sins.
I never really achieved something big in my life. Oh yeah, UPSR PMR SPM were awesome but that is not something you can bring it up around. People hate that. Here I am, just sitting in the corner or at the end of the room. Where no one seems to care. No one is paying attention to me. No one can read me.
[wallflower : a type of loner. seemingly shy folks who no one really knows. often some of the most interesting people if one actually talks to them]
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