Aspiration was defined as a hope or ambition of achieving something. If I was asked this question, I would blurred out. My mind will keep arranging words and reasons that would not sound silly. I want to make sure that my aspiration would sounds inspiring. Even though I was very hard to get motivated. One day I would be so enthusiastic but the next day I might be so down and depressed. I couldn't help myself. Even my mom told me that it may runs in our genes, to over thinking.
My aspiration in life would be something that make me feel better about myself and my life. I dont want to keep hating myself for the stuff or the decisions I'm making. I guess I always felt guilty. I want to make others to be happy around me, to accept me. I know, I can't really make ALL people to like me, There's a saying that says "You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches." It makes sense right?
It seems like I was diverging from the original question. Haha. Anyway, the thing I was saying is I was too busy thinking about what others might think of me rather than worrying what I have done to impress Him. What was actually I have been doing for the rest of my 20 years of living? Have I done something enough to be a good servant?
I noticed that I am not really istiqamah in making good deeds in my life. Iman naik dan turun. And I'm pretty sure I am vulnerable to get sad when my iman is low. Yes, I am easily to get influenced. That's scares me sometimes.
The greatest aspiration would be seeing my parent proud of me. I know, they love me so much and they would do anything to make me happy. I promise I would make them happy. I hope I can always be a good daughter to pray for them and make ease for them. Amin.
It feels good when you actually accept yourself. Feeling good about everything. There's still a long journey ahead me. There might be ups an downs throughout the journey, but I hope I am fully prepared mentally and physically. Insyaallah.
(This question and thoughts were inspired by the Pretty Hurts song. The song kept repeating the words, "Are happy with yourself?" at the end of it. So it gave me few ideas to write about it)
So, what's your aspiration in life?
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