Feverish gibberish

Well, I was sick for the last two days. I rarely got a fever, usually it would be just a cold or sinus. This time, I got a fever and cough. It was not a good combination since it made my head hurts like hell. For example, when I coughed, my head felt like it was going to get exploded and yeah my throat felt uneasy.

My dreams were getting weirder lately. They were intense and scary. Well, it was not that scary as you saw a ghost but it was the feeling when you were scared of something that you couldnt make it. You were running from something, escaping from somewhere. These kind of dream makes me feel exhausted. I was kinda afraid that I was dying.

They made me forget about some stuff. It was not so important, just about a feeling that I should get rid off. I dont know whether it was good thing or not, but I am glad I didnt think about it too much. I dont get sad or emotional like before. I couldnt recall a few things. Hurm. But other than that, I am okay. I hope so.

Waiting for dream and reality collide

So stop time right here in the moonlight, Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

It feels different lately. I dont even know what it is. I was trying to keep it cool but I just cant stop myself from being so silly. I want to be stronger and be a lot more confident than before. Those smile I was wearing have a different meaning in it. It just did :3

It feels good to let it out. no more suppressing or keep it all alone. Like always, my mom would be the only person I can talk to. But, Alhamdulillah Allah gave me friends, close friends that I can trust to share my feelings and thoughts. I never realise it before. Thank you for being there!

I am happy for what I have for now. Alhamdulillah. Yes, I am going to be 20 next month. Am I getting matured? Erm maybeee I dont know haha. Cause I still felt like a child  haha.

I have a lot of wishes. One of them is fulfilling my dream to go abroad. Maybe one day, insyaallah. I am quiet scared actually. Anything can happen. If Allah wills, it was guaranteed. 

floating hearts

I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm just feeling lost and my emotions were somehow killing me inside. Dear, you'll always know that I love you. I'm just trying to calm down my raging emotions. I don't want to lose you.

have u ever have the urge to tell someone how you missed them or liked them but you don't want to ruin your good relationship so you just kept quiet and see them being happy without you. I know, it sucks. But i must be grateful to what i have. It's just that you'll always wonder if you had made a good choice by not speak out the truth.

But frankly, i know that feeling is just some emotion mixed up when you are lonely. You try to find someone else but in the end, you do not want anyone else but only the one you always loved.

[ihavetobeSTRONGER.iloveyouFS]

Tawaran UPU

Alhamdulillah. 7 Mei haritu dah keluar resut UPU.
Tapi masalahnya masa tu internet rumah aku tak boleh pakai huhu, so aku kena suruh kawan aku check.
Tapi dah orang yang check so tak excited sangat la kan.

NURUL ATIQAH BT HUSSAIN SANI

TAHNIAH! Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program tersebut :

P0050 - ASASI SAINS PERTANIAN

UNIVERSITI PUTRA MALAYSIA

Alhamdulillah :D

Dan aku dapat bantuan asasi IPTA. Rezeki aku kat sini rupanya, so aku kena daftar 17hb Mei ni..awal kan. 

Tak sempat aku nak spend time lama-lama kat rumah huhuhu. Biarlah orang kata apa pun pasal program ni, aku dah ada tujuan aku dan aku akan usaha untuk capai cita-cita aku.

Orang ingat lepas asasi ni kena masuk bidang pertanian or perladangan tapi anda tersilap okay. That's why you must look and do a research. Mula-mula aku pun tak berapa nak minat, then bila aku dah pergi karnival kerjaya and aku tengok laman web UPM. Lepasan Asasi Pertanian berpeluang mengikuti program seperti 

Fakulti Pertanian
    PG11  Bacelor Sains Pertanian
    PG14  Bacelor Sains Hortikultur
    PP05  Bacelor Sains (Perniagaantani)
    PG27  Bacelor Pertanian (Akuakultur)
    PG32  Bacelor Pertanian (Sains Ternakan)

Fakulti Perhutanan
    PG12  Bacelor Sains Perhutanan
    PY11  Bacelor Sains Teknologi Kayu
    PG47  Bacelor Sains Taman dan Rekreasi

Fakulti Perubatan Veterinar
    PM01  Doktor Perubatan Veterinar

Fakulti Perubatan & Sains Kesihatan
    PM00  Doktor Perubatan
    PM02  Bacelor Sains (Sains Bioperubatan)
    PM05  Bacelor Sains (Dietetik)
    PM09  Bacelor Sains (Pemakanan & Kesihatan Komuniti)
    PM10  Bacelor Sains (Kesihatan Persekitaran & Pekerjaan)

Fakulti Kejuruteraan
    PK01  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Awam)
    PK02  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Elektrik & Elektronik)
    PK03  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Kimia)
    PK05  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Pertanian & Biosistem)
    PK08  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Mekanikal)
    PK15  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Aeroangkasa)
    PK16  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Proses & Makanan)
    PK17  Bacelor Kejuruteraan (Sistem Komputer & Komunikasi)

Fakulti Sains & Teknologi Makanan
    PG09  Bacelor Sains & Teknologi Makanan
    PG17  Bacelor Sains (Pengajian Makanan)

Fakulti Pengajian Pendidikan
    PT09  Bacelor Pendidikan (Sains Pertanian)

Fakulti Sains
             Bacelor Sains (Kepujian)
    PS02  Major Biologi
    PS08  Major Matematik
    PS09  Major Statistik
    PS15  Major Fizik
    PS28  Major Kimia
    PS29  Major Kimia Perindustrian
    PS30  Major Kimia Petroleum
    PS36  Major Sains Bahan
    PS37  Major Sains Instrumentasi

Fakulti Rekabentuk & Senibina
    PH02  Bacelor Senibina Landskap

Fakulti Bioteknologi & Sains Biomolekul
             Bacelor Sains (Kepujian)
    PG07  Bioteknologi
    PS26  Major Biokimia
    PS27  Major Mikrobiologi
    PS27  Biologi Sel dan Molekul

Fakulti Sains Alam Sekitar
    PG46  Bacelor Sains & Teknologi Alam Sekitar
    PP43  Bacelor Pengurusan Alam Sekitar

Dan insyaallah kalau ada rezeki dan pointer aku tinggi, aku boleh sambung buat medic! Amin :)

kepada semua kawan-kawanku, dan sesiapa yang aku kenal..goodluck girls and boys, don't you ever give up there's always a way and something in your future. You just have to work it.

Sometimes

Sometimes I'm emotional
Sometimes I can't control myself,
Sometimes I felt like cursing
Sometimes I can't accept the reality
Sometimes I blame others
Sometimes I blame myself.

Sometimes I hope everything will be fine, well it does
Sometimes I hope others to understand me
Sometimes I hope I could be stronger, better person
Sometimes I hope one day I will stop worrying ridiculous thing

I'm not perfect and I don't expect anything to be perfect. But I do mistakes. I don't need someone to promise me something to make me happy, when at the end that promise was just a lie. I just want to be happy and feel secured. So what if I don't have a boyfriend or someone special in my life? Why should I begging someone to be with me if that person doesn't even want me? Yeah of course I felt lonely sometimes, but it will went away eventually. It just need time. Is it wrong to wait for someone that worth it? The truth is I don't want to be hurt again, I don't want to walk through into tough phase again. Maybe it is for my best. Everything happen for a reason right?  Even if the happy ending doesn't exist, at least I had a pretty good journey in this life. And I am thankful for everything I had in my life, my parent, my family, my friends and those who cares.

Yeah I do wrote this kind of mushy emotion post when I'm sad or thinking of someone. I'm sorry for being a nuisance, it's kinda one of my habits hahaha. You know what, I just realised that I never really write about myself properly. You know, like the biodata thingy. I just saw my best friend's blog, she's new but her blog is way properly arranged than I am hahahaha. By the way, tomorrow is my last day as a working girl. I'm pretty exhausted and I just want to relax and spent more time with my family until I went away to further my studies. That's it I guess, ciao :D

Ohh Johor

Hello hello..

Blogging in Johor babyy :D

Tomorrow baru nak pergi Singapore, jalan-jalan dulu makan angin. Lusa baru nak pergi Universal Studio. OMG I can't wait for it.

Semalam tido kat Melaka. Naik Menara Taming Sari, naik Rivercruise, naik beca haha (kesian pakcik tu, dah la aku dengan adik aku berat hehe)

Tadi aku dengar lagu 'Sedetik Lebih' - Anuar Zain. Ya ya aku tau tu lagu dah agak ketinggalan tapi aku baru nak dengar betul-betul lagu tu hehe. Well the lyrics were quite awesome..terus remind me of my prince ♥

On : HIATUS

No blogging, no facebook, no internet, no tv.

Yeah, SPM trial is coming! It will be in this August. Wish me lots of luck, pray for me haha.
:)

Just being me

Aku suka. aku suka. aku suka sangat.
Kau orang suka belajar Sejarah tak? Mula-mula aku kenal matapelajaran Sejarah ni aku cukup tak suka. Dah la mengantuk. Bila ada subjek ni kat sekolah ja langit mula gelap, angin sepoi-sepoi suara cikgu makin perlahan perlahan tenggelam dengan bunyi angin. Serious weyh. Then, you know la apa jadi mata terkatup. Hahaha

Dah la kena satu tahun ni dapat cikgu yang sangaat cukup GARANG dan TEGAS. Cikgu tu macam selalu tak puas hati dengan aku, ntah kenapa perasan je kut. Tapi nasib baik, aku berjaya la juga dapat A kan. Alhamdulillah. Dah masuk form 5 ni subjek Sejarah masih wujud dan dah diwajibkan LULUS, ok la tu kan :P

Dan start tahun ni mak aku suruh masuk kelas tusyen. Tusyen Sejarah. First aku ingat dah la kelas malam mesti mengeroh punya. Tak. Aku silap. Dia pandai ambik hati. Pandai bercerita. Cikgu Sejarah ni best gila lah hahha. Tapi dah kahwin doh (oisshh) There's something about him yang aku suka. Tak. Bukan hensem macam pujaan hati Malaya. Cara dia bawa diri dia kut, ntahlah maybe. Semangat nak belajar Sejarah berkobar-kobar gitu. Serious aku suka SEJARAH.

It's just my motivation buat aku untuk belajar Sejarah. Kadang-kadang kena soal, tak sangka pandai gak aku bab2 Sejarah ni (owh perasan).
Tapi aku senyap je. Dulu cikgu ni asyik lupa nama aku, lawak betul. Akhirnya ingat pun. :)

Aku ni merepek kan. Pandai merepek ja kerja aku. Hurrmm.

Tadi tengok cerita drama 'Cinta Sempurna' kat Oasis tu. Cerita bulan puasa tahun 2009. Lagu tema dia Cinta Sempurna- Yuna. Lagu tu buat aku teringat kat seseorang. Seseorang yang jadi pemangkin aku untuk ke sekolah. huhu. Sama juga. Sekarang dah ada kekasih hati. Yela dulu masa budak-budak lagi. Biasalah masa tu orang lain ada abang angkat la, kakak angkat la, adik angkat la. Tapi aku tak. Dia ni first and the only one. Serious la! Hehehe

Aku tau aku tak lawa macam girlfriend korang. Yang hot. Yang selim. Yang ayu. Hhoho. Not me dear. Aku? Biasa ja. Plain Jane Atiqah huuhu. But im fine. Aku tak kisah pun. Mungkin dulu aku kejar title girlfiend. Arghh BODOH. Kesilapan lampau yang aku paling menyesal :( Aku berubah secara positif. Biarlah. Biarlah. AKU TAK KISAH. My mom is the greatest inspiration. Mak selalu cakap jodoh Allah dah tentukan. So, biarlah kan. haaha. Baru form5. SPM dulu weyh.

Dah. Tak mau melalut.

Busier than everr

OMG I'm so exhausted. There's so much homework, so much things to do. And i really felt suffocated. Last week I dont have time to update this blog, and i know i suppose to stay away from going online, but hey i need time for myself too okayy.This is going to be my final year and of course it takes a lot of sacrifices. Luckily, for this Chinese New Year, i have ten days from today until 7th of February to ease myself.

Three cheers for school holidays!!

But, of course there are some a lot of homework to be done. And darling, don't forget tuition doesn't have a holiday. Urgghh dammit. I need to recharge myself. My mother told me that my father will take us out somewhere. I miss the sea, the sea breeze, the sand and the relaxing days. And i really need a fixed time to eat. If i continued this bad habit which is 'ikut sesuka hati bila nak makan', I'm going to get it's consequences. I need to eat less and get physical.

Haihh, macam mana la nak kurus :(

I will be going to PISA, Penang this Sunday for Lawatan Kerjaya. Cant wait for it! :p
Last week my family and I went to the local steakhouse Chef det to celebrate my parent's 17th anniversary. The food was nice. We're having a great time haha.

[who do you think you are]

Back to December~

Hey guys,
Sorry for being soo busy. Biasalah dah nak f5 ni mestila rajin-rajin kan kan :]
I've been blogwalking in Fynn Jamal page.

http://puisitepijalan.blogspot.com

She's awesome. I love her poetry, her spirit and etc etc. Aku ni bukan si penulis atau pemidato sekolah atau penyair atau tukang puisi. Nak kata aku pandai cipta karya-karya ni pun, takde la sangat. Im just a girl who enjoys puisi-puisi bebas yang dekat Malaysia ni huhu. Zahiril Adzim's blog is also the place where i usually visit.

Aku bukan budak sastera, aku budak aliran sains tapi poetry suits my life. Sukaaa sangat.

Yesterday we went to Queensbay Mall, Penang. Actually before that we went to see the Pesta Bunga. Lepas tu baru lah pergi sana tu. Lepas makan 'besar' dekat Kenny Roger's, kitaorang pun pulang haha. Hrm, apa lagi yang tak cerita lagi ni?? huhu
Esok ada tuition lagi, hari yang betul-betul takdak tuition hanya pada hari Ahad & Rabu. Tu pun dah ada perubahan waktu huu. Takpelah berkorban untuk masa depan gak (=_=")
Like OMG, next year dah nak SPM! Lagi beberapa minggu je lagi dah nak buka sekolah. Cepatnya masa berlalu..

oookaayy, im done :)

Kuala Lumpur lalala

I'm back from KL! I've been busy attending tuition class this whole week, and today is the only day I'm 'free' huhu.
These are some of my holiday pictures. Tak pergi pun Port Dickson hehe. The propose of going to KL was the idea of my parents because they want to go to the agriculture expo (MAHA)
in MARDI Serdang. The expo is okay lah haha. The next day, we went jalan-jalan pusing KL, i meant literally 'walking' and saja-saja guna LRT from Wangsamaju (dekat kawasan rumah pakcik), then straight to KLCC, then Pasar Seni also known as the Central Market. Lepas dah penat jalan, baru balik.
Then, balik Kulim la.

[try makan teppanyaki, tp tak sedap sangat pun :p]