Tiqah goes to Japan

It was a dream came true to get a chance to visit Japan.

I have been dreaming to go to Japan since I was in high school. I just adore of their culture and food. There was an interview for representing Malaysia for International Student Summit held in Tokyo University of Agriculture, Japan. It was my second interview. My first interview did not turn out well and I was not selected as a presenter. Instead, my very good friend Zuriani was selected. She became the main presenter and Zureen as the poster presenter. I was very sad at first because I really wish to go there along with them. It was on 2015.

This year, there was another interview for 16th International Student Summit and I was very eager to join it. Maybe it was fated that at first I was informed in an email that I was not selected, again. That time, I said to myself that it's okay, it was not meant for me this time too. Maybe one day I will go there on my own or furthers my study there. A week later, the lecturer advisor Prof Zainal, emailed me to meet him in the office. I was ecstatic!

I could not believe my ears that I was given a chance to present an educational poster in Japan! Well, actually I could not believe that I AM GOING TO JAPAN!

After about 3 months of preparation, on 23rd of September 2016 we're off to Japan~

Syafiq (Nano) and I took Air Asia X from Klia2 to Haneda Airport at 2.30pm and reached there at 10.30pm. We stayed at the airport until the next morning before our student assistant came to pick us. Our student assistant is Hanna :D

Hello Japan!

The weather was a little bit cold because of the rain. Since its the beginning of fall season, the wind is strong. Since I arrived in Tokyo, I just fell in love with every single things in Japan. :')

Tokyo Nodai :)

View from the dormitory

Me and Shimah!

The program started from 24th September until 2nd October. We stayed in the dormitory and it was awesome! The summit consist of several discussions and making some conclusions about agriculture all over the world. I felt small in the group because every single of them are very passionate and have wide knowledge about agriculture. I was very inspired,

Oh the food! I really like to taste them all but as we all know, we cannot just really eat what ever we want haha. We only ate seafood and vegetables. The taste was nice but sometimes, you would just miss Malaysian food. Luckily I brought some packed "serunding" and we always have them for our breakfast. The food price in Tokyo were quite pricey. Our lunch and would cost about RM32-40 per meal. The cheapest food would be the Onigiri, you can find it anywhere at the convenient store such as 7 Eleven.  Our student assistant were very cautious with our food. They would explain to us what we can buy or eat. We are very grateful!

During our time there, Keiko came to Nodai to meet me! I was happy to see her and we exchanged gift. I also met Keisuke and Mahiro. I could not believe that I would meet them again. 

in Asakusa

Keiko :3

i love you all!

I wish I could describe my feelings and my experiences a lot more details, in words. So now I would just post pictures and write captions haha.

trip to Railway Museum

so nice~

i told you, i would just love everything here, the sunset

we're going to Asakusa

the crazy funny Nano

3.1 session! Gabriel, Trizhia, Megumi, Haruka, Shimah, Nano, Martha, Hanna, Ryu, me and Madson :3

the awkward me and the big poster 

the food are just tastyyyy

me and Hanna!

The 10 days were not enough for me. I wish I had more time to explore Japan and to get know more of my new friends. 

Maybe I'll write more afterwards or someday because lately my vocabulary and ideas are quite restricted. I should read more haha.  This is my last semester before my internship. I hope that I could gain more experience. Wish me luck for my final year project and writings! See you then!

One day

Its like December, the ending of a year

where the cold and loneliness accompanied me

While waiting for you to be here

But there's nothing that I can do

There's nothing that you can say

One day I will be fine

One day I will be glad to find the one

I know it may be some kind of a phase

but I swear I will never forget

Will never did

Even you're not around anymore,

I will be around here

Falling asleep with my own lullaby

To keep myself calm

One day I will be fine

One day I will be glad to find the one

So this is the so-called lyrics I wrote. Haha. Now I just need music to make it complete. I wish I was talented hahaha. I wish I can make a short film too haha. I was really inspired by some of the Malaysian Youtubers. They can act pretty good. My inner self really teringin nak join all these kind of stuff. :p 

Waiting for dream and reality collide

So stop time right here in the moonlight, Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

It feels different lately. I dont even know what it is. I was trying to keep it cool but I just cant stop myself from being so silly. I want to be stronger and be a lot more confident than before. Those smile I was wearing have a different meaning in it. It just did :3

It feels good to let it out. no more suppressing or keep it all alone. Like always, my mom would be the only person I can talk to. But, Alhamdulillah Allah gave me friends, close friends that I can trust to share my feelings and thoughts. I never realise it before. Thank you for being there!

I am happy for what I have for now. Alhamdulillah. Yes, I am going to be 20 next month. Am I getting matured? Erm maybeee I dont know haha. Cause I still felt like a child  haha.

I have a lot of wishes. One of them is fulfilling my dream to go abroad. Maybe one day, insyaallah. I am quiet scared actually. Anything can happen. If Allah wills, it was guaranteed. 

JAPAN

Since I'm still awake, I want to write about a place that I would love to travel. JAPAN :)

Everyone have their own dream place and mine was Japan. I know, people would say forget about going places before you went to Makkah & Madinah. Well, of course I do want to go there too...insyaallah one day. My life would be complete if I can go there perform Umrah and Haji. I really hope that I can make it.

Okay, why Japan?

I dont really know why I like Japan so much. Everytime I saw something related to Japan I would be excited haha. Maybe I was a little bit influenced by the anime movie Spirited Away. I really love the places that were shown in the movie eventhough they were not real. If there is a place just like the Ghost Town, I would certainly visit it.
Nowdays, people would be more excited to go to Korea because all the K-Pop thingy. To meet their fav bias or whatsoever haha. My sister, for example. Of course Korea also have its own beautiful prefecture and scenery. But I am way wayyy more interested to go to Japan :D

By the way, Japanese food seems appetizing. I had few of them in Sushi King, it was okay. I can still swallow and digested them. My favourite would be Ramen noodles and Sushi! all kind of Sushi hehe. I started to like sushi when I was in primary school. My maksu would always buy them when we went to Carefour. So since then, I can eat sushi and not feel sick after that. But there's saying that eating too much sushi can cause illness because the food was not cooked. Worms will appear and live in you brain! Scary though.

And of course, the story of 4th IASS. During the farewell at the KLIA  hahaha

"How many scarf did you have?"
"I'm not really sure maybe more than 20"
"So what is your favourite colour? My favourite colour is Green, Brown and Blue. I like them because it's the colour of nature. Green is tree. Brown is earth and Blue is water."
"I have a lot of favourite colour. But the colour I like the most are Blue and Purple.Like right now, I am wearing Blue scarf with blue t-shirt. So it can match! hehe"

He wandering around the airport and I was afraid that I might not have the chance to say a proper goodbye. I was talking to others when suddenly Keitaro came back from somewhere, carrying a bag. Some of them were teasing me. Then, he came and asked me.
"Atiqah, can you walk with me?"

I was really nervous. And I stand up. I was going to take a walk when one of my friend told him to say it in front of them. OMG! He stood in front of me and said all the nice things. He said that I was really a good friend, talk to him in English that he could learn more. He thanked me for taking care of him for the whole week. He wished me to study hard and achieve what I want. Then he gave me the bag.

"It's for you. To show my appreciation for you"

I opened it, it was a shawl. It was beautifull and I can tell it was expensive since it was branded and he bought it at airport.

"It has Blue and Purple in it. Just like your favourite colour"
"Thank you so much Keitaro. I never had a gift before. Thank you"

I was glad that I didnt cry. I am really glad.

It was already 5 months since they left. Everything that happen that night only remains as a memory. A memory that I am unsure. Am I dreaming? But, since that day we didnt talk much anymore. He was busy with his activity and after few weeks I found out that he was with Defika. Yup, they were together. I was quite shocked at first because all the things that he had said was kinda confusing me. Yup, I am still jealous of them but I realized that its just a summer fling. They deserved together. And maybe its good for me, because long distance relationship might couldnt work with me. Who am I kidding? It was impossible for someone to actually like me. =.=

I was over it now. But I still love enjoying new stuff. Last few days I was totally addicted to anime : Natsume Yuujinchou. All the 4 seasons I have completed! :') I really really like Nyanko Sensei. A fat cat haha. I am learning few Japanese words. So I knew few words of basic Japanese. I hope one day my wish can be granted. I wanted to go to Japan. Maybe if I have good grades, I can further my master in Japan. Or maybe I just save my money to go there. The best thing could happen is, my significant will take me there. hahaha dreaming again. So that's all.

It seems that I didnt write much about Japan but more to a Japanese guy ahhaha. Sumimasen! :3

Stupid

How not to be stupid?

Cause right now, I really felt stupid.

Hati Mati

Seandainya waktu

Tak pernah pertemukan aku dengan dirimu

Akan kubiarkan mati hatiku selamanya

Sehingga kau datang membangunkan aku

-Kurelakan Jiwa (Hazama)-

Biarlah hati aku mati sementara tapi bukan mati kaku dari agama atau hilang pegangan agama. Biarlah hati aku mati daripada terus punya perasaan yang mungkin agak membuang masa. Biarlah hati aku mati daripada terus memendam sifat-sifat yang menghancurkan. Biarlah hati aku mati dari punya perasaan kepada sesiapa yang tak ditakdirkan Dia. Biarlah hati aku mati tak terus gundah memikirkan yang ragu-ragu. Biarlah hati aku mati sementara ini. Sehingga engkau yang berkemungkinan bisa menghidupkan aku. Ya, engkau. 

Ramadhan Kembali

1 Ramadhan 1435

Harini merupakan hari pertama berpuasa bagi seluruh umat Islam di Malaysia. Alhamdulillah harini hujan dari pagi tadi. Almost seharian jugaklah hari sejuk :3
Alhamdulillah this year I still have the opportunity to fast with my family well except for Nina because she still in the middle of her studies. But still, tomorrow I'll have to go back to UPM for few days to take care of something. May Allah ease my way.

So what's for sahur? hehe
Alhamdulillah mak sediakan sahur yang agak menyelerakan walaupun simple. Nasi goreng dengan ayam goreng. I planned to wake up and  do the sahur dish today, but today was a little bit rush and mak ja yang buat sahur. I'll make it up to you okay mak hehe.

Tahun ni ingat nak berbuka dengan sederhana sebab nak jaga pemakanan haha. I really wanted to lose some weights and I have to disciplined myself. So maybe untuk berbuka japgi kena makan berpada-pada. Eat LESS.

Last 2 years, I have lost about 5 kg. That's because I was fasting in college. I was busy and sometimes I didnt have my sahur. It was a big change for me because usually its hard for me to lose that much and somehow, my weight always kept constant. Like now, my weight is still the same as the 2 years before. But I still doesnt feel good about myself and my weight :/

I want to have the ideal weight, well at least its normal. I also want to be healthy. I dont want to have penyakit like darah tinggi because my mom and my grandmother ada darah tinggi.

Sometimes I miss fasting in college but being with family is still the best. Cant wait for this raya..jumpa semua saudara mara. Eating good food, erm hahaha.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak dan Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa! :D

Good Night

I want to write a long poem

about saying Good Night,

A poem that tells you to ease your soul 

and have a good rest,

wishing you sweet dream

while i was here hoping that i'm in it.

I want to write a long poem

about saying Good Night,

A poem that makes you feel safe

and not imitated by how i feels

so you can wake up 

with that smile.

I want to write a long poem

about saying Good Night,

but it didnt turn out well

Instead,

I just want to wish you Good Night.

Penulis Kegemaran

Sejak balik dari Pesta Buku KL semalam, aku mula gian. Kembali gian untuk menulis. Aku menulis untuk kembalikan kekuatan, mencari ketenangan apabila meluahkan yang terbuku.

Sekarang bukannya aku jadi rapuh, cuma saat ini aku perlukan satu pendorongan. Semalam bagi aku indah, walaupun hari semalam hari yang sejarah kerana ada demonstrasi / perhimpunan di Dataran Merdeka. Semalam aku ke PWTC dengan tujuan hanya satu, bertemu Penulis Kegemaran dan ya membeli buku! haha. Penulis Kegemaran jadi cashier untuk sepanjang Pesta Buku. Seperti tahun lepas, pertama kali aku jumpa secara live depan mata aku. Oh ni lah Petak Daud.

Buku indie pertama aku beli, Petak/Santun karya Petak Daud. Sebab aku beli? Adalah sebab aku tu haha.

Aku suka cara penulisannya. Dengan hasil stalk atau guna FB dan Google, aku jumpa page dia. Sejak hari tu, aku mula membeli buku buku puisi dan buku indie terbitan DubookPress. Buku Menuju Nafas Terakhir masih dalam proses untuk aku habiskan haha. Bulan lepas, aku ke ArtForGrabs di Pasar Seni dan jumpa Petak Daud ! Aku beli buku puisi terbaru dia, Seorang Perempuan di Jalan Alor. Yang bestnya, aku dapat tandatangan dan dapat bergambar hehe.

Semalam pun bergambar lagi hahahaha. Mungkin lepas ni boleh buat koleksi bila setiap kali jumpa. Kah! Tapi tak mungkin. Kerna si Penulis Kegemaran punya kegemarannya sendiri ;)

Apa pun, aku akan terus menyokong! Aku harap aku dapat kumpul balik karya karya aku yang tak seberapa tu untuk di-zine kan haha. Harapnya, salah satu copy dapat aku hand in ke Petak Daud. Wish me luck~

* ArtForGrabs 29/3*

Busy Atiqah is being busy

Hello hello!

Dah lama tak menjenguk belog tersayang tercinta ni haha. Ni pun sebab bosan + ada masa (buang masa) + dapat uspot hoho. Currently dah masuk minggu nak test 2 untuk semester 2! Amboi cepatnya masa berlalu haha. Test yang terawal adalah Hubungan Etnik dan Titas. Subjek yang memerlukan kesabaran dan minat membaca tahap tertinggi. Maaf, level aku belum tahap tertinggi hehe.

I am being busy, maybe?

Jarang jarang online, jarang jarang tweet. I am still here, presence in this fanaa but I am kinda avoiding the public right now. I dont know why. Maybe satu sebab phone dah nak rosak tahap tunggu nak baling haha. There's a lot of things that been going on in my mind lately. Few more weeks and I'll be free from the thoughts. The thoughts that put me in fear. Something has been happening for past few weeks but I didnt tell people bout it. Just few of them knew. I kept it because I was totally freaked out. Some may think that this is nothing, but for me..it is not really fine.

I used to wish that everyone would just see me and treat me like normal girl but yeah "be careful what you wished for, it might become true" Now I wish that people wont see me or notice me. I still want to live in my safe zone.

I'm sorry for being hateful but it is just the way I am sometimes.

So, back to the tittle. Yeah, I've been busy but not too busy. Busy with some lab reports and studies. Typical students problem hehe. Time flies people! and few more weeks then its final exam already!! Omaigoshh. Next sem will be tougher, i guess? and not forgetting that i will be a second year student hah!

I hope this semester will end okay. I dont put much hope on it. but i hope it will be OKAY.

Actually there's a lot of things I want to write about, but the problem is simple..i dont have much time and wifi in upm always envy me haha. but when i go back home, the only problem is i dont know what to write..because at home, the biggest problem just doesnt seems so big after all. The thing is, I really want to write something..something really great. I was kinda excited when Fixi Novo is calling out for entries for their next one. Imagine looking at your name on the book and your favourite writer might read it! :3

Mid-sem break

4 more days.

I have to face the reality and some problems when I'm back to the college. It's hard for me to face it sometimes. I am not myself sometimes. I was too damn insecure and I feel so timid. Everyday I have to keep reminding myself to be strong and keep thinking positive thoughts.

I cant be weak.

For the next 3 years, I have to be stronger and put full determination to keep up my studies. My main focus should be trying to get good grades and make my parent proud. Sometimes it may sounds selfish. But family's only I got. Right now, I only keep people who are important in my life.

I was totally fine without the thought of it, but i was lying if i said that i dont feel to have one. You got me?

I have my own reasons for what I was doing. Sometimes I dont know how to explain. Maybe all the wishes that i wanted to be numb and heartless has been granted. For now, lets just be happy what we're having right now.

Please, have a nice day! :)

4th IASS 2014

Syukur alhamdulillah dah selesai pun program IASS yang ke-4 ni. There's a lot of memory that i can keep and will not be forgotten for the rest of my life. And i learnt a lot from this program. I also learnt to be more active not pasive aherherher.

Daripada awal ambil participant dari airport sampai lah semalam hantar diorang balik. Harini aku hilang semangat. Aku dah mula rindu mereka-mereka. Aku rindu Diplomatic & International Division. Suba, Syafiq (Nano), Kak Hajar, Iris, Sasi, Yusuf, Welson, Hasan, Amir dan Teng. Aku rindu participants dari Jepun, Indonesia, China, India, Thailand, Guam, Korea dan Malaysia sendiri. Aku mohon maaf jika ada kesalahan sepanjang program dan layanan aku haha.

Thanks Keitaro Goto (Niigata University, Japan) for the gift last night. I really appreciate it. You're too kind. take care guys, Keisuke, Shota, Yuudai, Kiryu, Hirofumi, Rikiya and Kazu. And i will never forget my sisters from Thailand. Katreeeya, Chanaporn, Duangjai (Thaksin University, Thailand) You guys really make me feels acceptable. I learnt new languages, learn how to interact. Thanks for being my ultimate awesome international friends!

You guys gave me new enthusiasm to further my studies abroad. I will do my best for my future, insyaallah. Maybe one day i will see you guys again. Dont forget me!

the real self

Setiap orang ada personaliti ataupun perangai masing-masing. Kadang-kadang, kita hanya kenal yang kelihatan. Walaupun kita kadang dah lama kenal orang tu tapi dalam keadaan tertentu, orang tu bukan seperti yang kita kenal. do you get the idea of what i'm saying? haha

Kadang kita ingat kita kenal orang tu, tapi rupanya tak.

Tapi the point of my post actually ada la kaitan dengan aku. Maksudnya, tak semua betul-betul kenal aku. They think they did, but sometimes it doesnt. Kadang aku sendiri pun macam tak kenal diri aku. It's kinda I have two side in my life. Most of the people saw me as quiet and reserved girl. I must admit that I dont really talk much and sometimes I am a totally shy person hewhewhew. My mom told me that I am the soft-hearted girl and very quiet sensitive haha. I am totally different from my sister. Tapi aku bukannya tak bercakap langsung, kalau dengan orang yang aku betul-betul selesa aku akan cakap banyak macam orang lain jugak haha.

Ada orang cakap aku ni jenis mengikut ja, dulu pun kat sekolah ada orang cakap aku takda pendirian. Aku mengaku memang aku tak boleh buat keputusan sendiri. Tapi bila aku buat keputusan, ada orang nak dengar ka?

Entahlah, aku rasa aku ni kadang pendendam kut. Aku suka ingat apa orang buat or kata kat aku. Setakat ni mungkin tahap kesabaran tu tinggi kut. Tapi kadang sakit jugak simpan sorang-sorang ni. Kadang-kadang tu maaflah kalau aku terus snap ataupun cakap benda yang menyakitkan. You really have to know that I had enough. 

It's hard to keep so much thoughts in my mind. I'm sorry for thinking too much.

happy 19th birthday tiqah tikot!!

Alhamdulillah genap 19 tahun dah aku hidup atas muka bumi ni hehe. So tahun depan dah 20 la kan? Tua nya rasa haha.

Okay selama sebulan kat sana, ni baru boleh balik rumah. yeay! Tapi, apakan daya..cuti ni kejap sangat. Tu pun sebab cuti Raya Aidiladha. Birthday aku 12hb haritu, dan aku masih di kolej. Dan dalam 19 tahun hidup, malam besday tu lah first time aku kena prank. Terima kasih zureen sebab simbah air sejuk kat aku haha. Tak sangka :')

Then dapat dapat hadiah! Lepas tu berpusu pusu tweets wish birthday hehe. Ada gak yang mesej aku ja. Aku ni jenis tak kisah nak wish kat mana pun, asalkan wish. Bukan apa, nampak la macam orang ingat gak aku ni huhu. Terima kasih kepada sesiapa yang wish aku tu. terharu kut hehe.
Selama seminggu sebelum birthday aku tu, aku harapkan sangat birthday kali ni lebih baik.
And my wish was granted!

Aku dapat wish daripada mostly kawan-kawan rapat aku, kawan-kawan twitter dan kawan-kawan yang mengenali diriku acewah. Hari birthday aku tu aku jenjalan dengan zureen kat KLCC! Yeay, another wish was granted. Entah kenapa sejak aku balik UPM haritu, rasa nak ke situ haha. then aku dapat 'hadiah' belon daripada random stranger yang kerja kat kedai magic haha, siap ada video dia nyanyi birthday lagi.

Most credits goes to zureen. Thanks for making my day!

Dan tak lupa, satu memori baru tercipta haha. So much coincidence on that day. sama masa, sama tempat cuma lain tujuan. I'm a happy girl! :D

Dan bila balik rumah ni, dapat hadiah lagi wkwkwkwkwk. thanks mak ayah for the dinner today.thanks for the cake,  thanks for the new sneakers, thanks for taking care of me for 19 years! insyaallah i will make it up to both of you one day. :3

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

One day you're here, one day you're there

Raya! Raya! Raya!

Okay, sebenarnya dah 2 minggu lebih dah raya haha. So rasanya belum terlambat nak ucap Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin!

Raya tahun ni berbeza daripada tahun lepas tapi alhamdulillah masih lagi bersyukur dapat beraya dengan family. Baju raya tahun ni tema warna seakan-akan peach. Cantik, tapi mak cakap macam striking sangat sebab warna cerah haha. Raya raya tak boleh sedih kena gembira.

Kena malam ni mood moody datang tetiba. Rasa macam nak mengamuk pun ada tanpa ada sebab haha. Orang cakap tanda awal nak gila ermmm haha. Maybe la kan, sebut 40 kali termakbul lah doa tu ehh. Nauzubillah. Harap-harap tak la kan. lagipun, dua tiga hari ni mata asyik twitching. Rasa ganggu pun ada.

Maybe sebab stress ataupun eye-strain. Selalu sangat online, ni la jadinya haha. 

There's been a lot that going on lately, and i can even told any one about it. So I have to kept it myself. Mungkin sebab tu rasa macam gunung berapi nak meletus.

So, sekali lagi aku minta maaf sangat2 kalau aku ada silap atau ada sakitkan hati orang. I know sorry wont fix anything but, sorry :/

Lebih kurang 2 minggu lagi ja nak masuk UPM balik, I hope I will be mentally and physically prepared.

I'm sorry for being unfair all these times.

One day you screaming you love me loud

The next day you're so cold

One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care

You're so unfair

Mistakes

Everybody made mistakes right? Either it's big or small. And for sure, we do regrets of our own mistakes.
People say, human are not perfect..they do all certain kinds of mistakes in various ways. Sometimes, we didnt really realize it. Sometimes we regret it after it has been for a long time.

For me, it is something that we'll have to live with it until the rest of our life.

And yeah, sometimes that mistake can be fixed, and sometimes that mistakes were meant to be buried in our deepest thought. I mean, if it still can be fixed.. try your best to make it done. Eventhough it will change your life, just make it sure that it's what you want and it will never can haunt you anymore. Perhaps, taking an advice from people who care about you is the real deal. It's okay to follow your inner gut, but sometimes taking another point of view might help you solved your problems.

This is from my point of view right now, yes you can argue more but right now.. this is what I understand. I had a lots of mistakes in my life. Only certain kinds of things that are worth to fight for. Fight for something that you love, fight for something that make you happy. Fight for your life. No one deserve to feel down everytime, even the little things can light up someone's life.

I'm fighting for my own. maybe there's ups and downs but I still hope everything will be worth it one day. I can't be weak for now, I'm going to be 20 next year. It's time to grow up and be more matured. But, being childish sometimes can't hurt anybody right?

For the people I love, I am sorry for my imperfections. I am sorry that sometimes I've failed you. I'm sorry I can't be good enough. But thanks, thanks for loving me. Thanks for raising me up. Thanks for accepting who I am and always be there when I needed most. I should be more grateful that I'm still here. I still have my beloved ones. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.

 I love you people!

Dear brain, please stop it..

Everytime when the night comes all I can think of is how all of this started. The memory kept haunting me. I dont like it very much because it made me feel all mushy mushy. It's not that I hate it, I just need to get out of my mind for a while. I always knew that I was nothing and I should better stop thinking about it right?

Maybe it is not worth it.

Everything happens for a reasons, and it gave me a different kind of view about life. So I'm going to start a new life. I'm pretty sure I wont forget all those memories. Thanks for that.

Bakal Budak Degree

Assalamualaikum :D

pada 15hb Julai 2013 ialah tarikh bebudak ASPer 8 pakat pakat nervous nak check result haha. Mulanya diorang cakap 14hb then kena tunda, pastu daripada pukul 12PM tunda 3PM *tak UPM lah kalau tak tunda haha... tunggu punya tunggu jeng jeng dah keluar result!

Aku cuak gila sebab pointer aku rendah ja. Seriously rendah, aku dah berapa kali nangis tengok result tak berubah-ubah. Aku takut sangat kalau aku dapat degree lelong. Kos degree yang dicampak. Tahap nervous tu sampai nak muntah haha =.=

Dengan lafaz bismillah, aku masukkan nombor ic...

Tahniah Nurul Atiqah Binti Hussain Sani !

Alhamdulillah aku dapat kos salah satu daripada 5 pilihan tu. Aku bersyukur sangat sangat. :')
Walaupun aku mengharap sangat aku dapat nutritionist tapi dapat kos ni pun syukur alhamdulillah. So, aku akan bergelar pelajar degree dan bakal bergelar budak pertanian lah kan haha. Takpa, aku redha..

Dalam surat tawaran, aku dapat kolej 12 so bye bye 13..sedih tu sedih gak, tapi nak buat camna kan. Kalau boleh tukar, memang aku nak gak tukar hee :3
Insyaallah aku akan menghadap kimia lagi.. fizik aku tak pasti, agric mestilah kan. tahniah kawan2 yang lain, aku pun tak sangka rezeki aku tertulis kat sini. Jauh menyimpang gak daripada minat asal.. daripada health science jadi agriculture haha.

Tarikh daftar 2hb September, masa tu pun nervous nervous jugak sebab ada orientasi bagai kan. Tapi mudahan Allah lancarkan urusan aku, amin :)

Universiti Putra Malaysia! I will see you again soon!

heartless.

Now I know that I can't make you stay but where's your heart?

I thought I never can leave your heart. It was easy right? to let me go..

DROWNING

Do you ever felt that somehow you are drowning and it seems nobody notice it. No matter how loud you screams, they can't hear it. You began to cry, you pray to God. Your mind was messed up. You have many regrets. You have many dreams that will never came true.
No matter how far you swim, you were dragged into the deep sea. You were choked. You were gasping for air. There were people in the sea, but they just kept laughing. They stare you in your eyes and said "The world is better without you".

Suddenly, everything was pitch black. No sound was heard anymore.